What I see in the mirror is often not how others see me.

It’s a sad state of affairs. The way I see myself and how society sees me… many times, it isn’t in alignment. I’m an educated white guy with intellectual tendencies, citizenship? American. I wish others see me in the south the way I do.

But they don’t, for the most part. The kind ones call me olive, that guy with a cool accent who often get confused when I say that I’m from the United States. They don’t believe and always ask, “But where are you really from?” You have an accent.

The mean ones introduce other men to my wife as an attempt to rescue her from the “gang member” type or assume that I’m a “poor Mexican” living in the US to steal their jobs. Many are often afraid to speak with me in public due to the fear of having others judging them because they are talking with me which is a form of racism, by the way.

Some have even paid (or are still paying) close attention to what I write here in my blog and feed this information to others as a spy in order to gain acceptance and defend their interests, yet putting me down to make themselves look good.

You know, it’s the foreigner… we can do this to him. Or shall we say, “He isn’t white.”

I wonder if they would do the same things to others, non-foreign nationals. I doubt… the irony: They think that I don’t know. They are wrong. I’m always paying attention and getting notes…

When you are a foreign national, you develop an extra ordinary ability to look at others objectively which definitely helps us to literally find out who is a friend and who pretends to be one. You should be ashamed by what you are doing…

Maybe I should clarify on small detail in here. In the United States, I’m a Latino who happens to have white skin. So, to many… I’m considered to be a minority in this country. Why? Because there is a majority who don’t look “Olive” like me.

What I perceive about my persona and how other perceive me is a total disconnect for the most part. It’s sad but true.

Many label me as a poor Mexican or a gang member from MS-13. I’m de facto a college professor holding a PHD from a public Ivy League — Penn State, member of the American middle class.